Midnight Moon

I wrote this on my Holland blog shortly after Christmas and wanted to share it here.

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The sun has just set. You knew as dusk set in that midnight was coming. Midnight is the darkest time. It's when the shadows are at their biggest, noises are heard the most or when silence rings loudest.

It was under a full moon that Jesus prayed alone in the garden knowing his biggest trial was at hand. He knew midnight, his death was approaching.

Now, we may not be approaching death in the literal sense but how often does a small piece of us die each time we deal with trauma? When our children are in pain and we can't do anything about it? When we know they face surgery yet nothing to stop it? Justified or not, the fear, worry, sadness, insomnia, constant battles, etc. we face? If not dealt with, we eventually die inside. Dying spirituality and or emotionally is often more prolonged and painful then a physical death.


I admit I have been "ill" with spiritual and also emotional "sickness" before. We all have to one extent or another. It doesn't take long for it to fester and get to the point where you sometimes feel like a physical death would be better. During the time of midnight, wandering alone is our biggest tests of faith. The worst is the wandering alone. What will you face ahead? Tragedy, bankruptcy, divorce, etc. The list can go on..... In the journey, there is no GPS, maps or anything. You learn as you go. You learn that at times of despair and heartache that you must go on. There really isn't any other choice.


Traveling over Christmas going back home to Arkansas from Indiana, we were listening to the trial we had of XM radio. On there, one of the messages said, "You cannot worry and have faith in God too. You can't have both. Either you trust or you don't."

OUCH...... That stung me.....

"I'll never know
How much it cost
To see my sin
Upon that cross"


Luke 17:11-19

If you ask God for more then you thank him for, you have a problem.
Always have gratitude. Only one came back in that Bible story. One.

How often do we go through each day REALLY thanking God for what He has done?


The sun did rise and so did Jesus on that first Easter morning. The dawn will come for you as well. In the meantime, when it's midnight, look for the moon and the stars. Those glimmers of light are better seen the darker it is. The next time midnight and our the storm barrels at me, I will hopefully remember the words shared here. It's coming.....


We may feel like a single grain of sand inside this giant planet but each grain of sand put together, can make something beautiful out of glass when melted together.


My storm: Stupid ear infection AGAIN for my daughter! Second one in less then a month.... My son is getting therapy evals.
My rainbow: I don't have to cook dinner tonight! ;)

What's yours?

Blessings!!
~ Special Momma ~