"The only dark will be in the hearts of those that choose to not understand. Yes.... Choose. When you choose to understand you do not make judgements, you question to understand more fully what it is exactly the road we travel. You then choose to support either in words or deeds, not condemn. Just because you don't agree with something doesn't give you the right to dictate whether we have more children, and how we choose to raise the children we do have. If that train of thought were true, then it could quite possibly could mean WWII was for naught. That the ideals of the Nazis and Hitler himself were taught as truth..... And that... That would be a horror."
My friend Celeste wrote that in a comment to me about a post she tagged me in sharing about her two children with special needs.
Though no matter the battle, remember this as well:
“Then the Angel of the Lord appeared to him and said, “Mighty hero, the Lord is with you!” “Sir,” Gideon replied. “If the Lord is with us, why all this has happened to us? And where are all the miracles our ancestors told us about? Didn’t they say? “The Lord brought us up out of Egypt? But now the Lord has abandoned us and handed us over to the Midianites.” Then the Lord turned to him and said, “GO WITH THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE AND RESCUE ISRAEL FROM THE MIDIANITES. I AM SENDING YOU!” “But Lord,” Gideon replied. “How can I rescue Israel? My clan is the weakest in the whole tribe of Manasseh, and I am the least in my entire family!” The Lord said to him, “I will be with you. And you will destroy the Midianites as if you were fighting against one man.” –Judges 6:12-16
We too can win our battles. With God on our side, nothing is impossible. The darkness doesn't last forever.
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
I'll be back to posting more regularly soon, been insanely busy here......
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
What is life supposed to be?
When we grow up we think of the big dreams and stuff that we would be. I told everyone that I would be a "bug scientist" also known as an Entomologist. I also wanted to be married with three children and be rich. If you asked me when I was eight years old, the age of my daughter that's what I wanted to be. My daughter dreams of being a singer or drummer like two of her idols in the band P.O.D. She already has one up from me as she has gotten to hang out with her dream band twice. Sonny Sandoval is her biggest idol. Yet as exciting as that is, she also misses out on a lot. Church camp is coming up but unfortunately she will have to miss because of seeing her neurologist. She has had to miss many other opportunities. My son's story will be no different unfortunately.
Yet today when I told her she would miss church camp, she was disappointed but not upset. Almost like she's adjusted to it maybe. Just what life is. Yet we are blessed.
My husband and I began this special needs journey just over eight years ago. Little did we know.... Yet as dark as some days have been and as isolating as others have been, I have no regrets. God created my children and he called us to raise our children. Think of that.
God created our children and God called us to raise them.
Is life all roses? Absolutely not! It's not all thorns either. Words I will always remember from a dear momma. "Our children are precious and rare gems." What do gems do when given the proper light? They shine brilliantly. Polish your gems mommas and give them Light and watch them shine. That is what we are to get joy from in our kids. Life is not what sports they play, grades, perfection, etc. Life is not about how rich we can be, best jobs, house, car, etc. Life is about the joy we find within it.
Let's watch our children shine so the whole world can see the Light within them.
"For at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light"
Ephesians 5:8
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
Yet today when I told her she would miss church camp, she was disappointed but not upset. Almost like she's adjusted to it maybe. Just what life is. Yet we are blessed.
My husband and I began this special needs journey just over eight years ago. Little did we know.... Yet as dark as some days have been and as isolating as others have been, I have no regrets. God created my children and he called us to raise our children. Think of that.
God created our children and God called us to raise them.
Is life all roses? Absolutely not! It's not all thorns either. Words I will always remember from a dear momma. "Our children are precious and rare gems." What do gems do when given the proper light? They shine brilliantly. Polish your gems mommas and give them Light and watch them shine. That is what we are to get joy from in our kids. Life is not what sports they play, grades, perfection, etc. Life is not about how rich we can be, best jobs, house, car, etc. Life is about the joy we find within it.
Let's watch our children shine so the whole world can see the Light within them.
"For at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light"
Ephesians 5:8
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
Sunday, July 12, 2015
PICU
The morning following my son's brain surgery, my husband and I were walking into the hospital at Medical City Dallas. I saw a couple bringing out a large wagon of stuff but no child..... I feared the worst. Shortly after I saw a grandmother carrying a bouncy seat crying. As we approached her truck, I could tell she needed help. I was running a bit behind for when I wanted to be back in the PICU by but I knew I needed to be here.
I went to her and asked how I could help. She was sobbing. I held the truck door so it wouldn't hit the car beside it as she put the bouncy in. I knew in my heart she was with the couple that was bringing out the loaded wagon. I found out they were the aunt and uncle bringing stuff and the woman I helped was indeed the grandmother. Her granddaughter had just died a few hours before. I can't remember the name of the condition but it was a weak trachea and it collapsed again and this time they couldn't get it to open back up. The poor child suffocated. As she told me this out in the parking lot, I held her as she sobbed. I was wiping my eyes as well. Tears for a complete stranger. Soon after I walked in with her and I met the mother. I gave her huge hugs as well and told her as well that I would pray for the family. I went in to see my son. Very soon after I felt God tugging at me saying, "Why didn't you pray for them right there with them?" So, I made an excuse to go back out to the waiting room of the ICU. The whole family was there then. Most of them either sobbing or red eyes where they had just exhausted tears. I went to the grandmother and asked her if I could pray for all of them. I stepped out of my comfort zone and prayed out loud for all of them. They all thanked me, mostly by nodding and smiles. The next time I stepped out of the ICU, they were all gone.
I went back into my son's room and held him as much as I could and told him I loved him as I grieved for the family who had spent the last three months in that same ICU floor.
I keep thinking of that family. I honestly didn't get any names but yet God knows who they are.
Think of that today. Think of making it to where you are not in such a hurry to go here or there that you don't stop long enough to look around and see who needs your help or even prayers.
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
I went to her and asked how I could help. She was sobbing. I held the truck door so it wouldn't hit the car beside it as she put the bouncy in. I knew in my heart she was with the couple that was bringing out the loaded wagon. I found out they were the aunt and uncle bringing stuff and the woman I helped was indeed the grandmother. Her granddaughter had just died a few hours before. I can't remember the name of the condition but it was a weak trachea and it collapsed again and this time they couldn't get it to open back up. The poor child suffocated. As she told me this out in the parking lot, I held her as she sobbed. I was wiping my eyes as well. Tears for a complete stranger. Soon after I walked in with her and I met the mother. I gave her huge hugs as well and told her as well that I would pray for the family. I went in to see my son. Very soon after I felt God tugging at me saying, "Why didn't you pray for them right there with them?" So, I made an excuse to go back out to the waiting room of the ICU. The whole family was there then. Most of them either sobbing or red eyes where they had just exhausted tears. I went to the grandmother and asked her if I could pray for all of them. I stepped out of my comfort zone and prayed out loud for all of them. They all thanked me, mostly by nodding and smiles. The next time I stepped out of the ICU, they were all gone.
I went back into my son's room and held him as much as I could and told him I loved him as I grieved for the family who had spent the last three months in that same ICU floor.
I keep thinking of that family. I honestly didn't get any names but yet God knows who they are.
Think of that today. Think of making it to where you are not in such a hurry to go here or there that you don't stop long enough to look around and see who needs your help or even prayers.
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
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