Most would see this open field and see weeds. I see quiet solace, I see peace and quiet. I also see where the night brought dew but the morning light will nourish. Darkness comes but the light will be back.... If we can survive the darkness, we will see the glorious light. If we can survive the storm, no matter how bad it is, we will arise out of it with the sun shining to our face and a rainbow outside the storm.
Yesterday morning I was walking my son in his stroller when I saw this. My mind was flooded with thoughts. We didn't get the best news on his MRI and my thoughts were all over the place. When I get words in my head, I like to write. At this moment I am doing better then I was. In time I will adjust to this "new again" normal.
What I'm having a hard time with is wondering what I did or did not do to cause this for my son. What could I have done different? Was playing with him in some of the ways I have made it worse?
What is our new normal again? That is when I thought of broken solace. Solace means peace in times of trial. Right now I don't feel peace but in time I will adjust to this, like I have everything else over the years. I will adjust, the shock will wear off and life will go on. No rest for the weary, really except in the peace that only God can give us.....Yet once something is broken, it is never the same. Glass once broken shatters. Even if you put every piece back together in it's proper places, it doesn't look the same. It's been broken. Yet sometimes in that brokenness, beauty can be found in the most unlikely places.Think of a glass mosaic. All pieces of broken glass intended likely for something else. Yet put together with glue, plaster, etc. to make the most interesting creations.
Yet I can find peace in that my children are happy, God has a plan and I know all will work out for the best, in time.
A quote I will end this with was one that was shared in Bible study last night. We were talking about the wisdom of God.
"until we grasp what it means that God
is all-wise, we will never be able to trust and rest in his wise plan
for our lives."
"If there were a better way to do it, then I would be experiencing those other circumstances instead of these. If there were a kinder, faster, more expedient, or gentler way, God would be using it." Chip Ingram
Hard to believe sometimes..... Honestly the first thought I had last night when I read that was, "Well then, why my son? If this was the easy way, I would hate to see the hard way....."
There is much I'll never understand on this side but someday I will......
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
"If there were a better way to do it, then I would be experiencing those other circumstances instead of these. If there were a kinder, faster, more expedient, or gentler way, God would be using it." Chip Ingram
Hard to believe sometimes..... Honestly the first thought I had last night when I read that was, "Well then, why my son? If this was the easy way, I would hate to see the hard way....."
There is much I'll never understand on this side but someday I will......
Blessings!
~ Special Momma ~
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